How could you?!?!?!?

I was talking to a good friend the other day, catching up on the years that each of us had missed and in the conversation we talked about the things that failed in our lives, mistakes, sins and their consequences. And as my friend began to express her frustration towards the Lord it reminded me of the same battle i had within myself the month prior.
Rewind to the month before this conversation. Within myself was a battle, a showdown if you will, with the Lord over my life. I came with anger and fire! I was angry with the way my life ended up and angry that the Lord, the one who's suppose to love me, who prays to the father on my behalf, and wants the best for me would allow my life to crumble the way it had. after this lengthy battle, and shared words of my own, I began to see things from a different perspective and its rocked my world!
The truth is we have one incredible God! We serve a God that allows us FREE choice, to do what we want...and who will still love us after we've messed up. This simple truth made me realize that we have NO right to place the blame of our failures and broken lives on the Lord. When we choose to walk in sin and disobey we are saying we take on full responsibility of the consequences. But when all is said and done and things begin to crumble beneath us we point our finger towards the Lord and say why did YOU do this?! how could YOU?! well my friends the saying goes, "if you point a finger at someone there's always three pointing back at yourself!" there is no one to blame but ourselves.
God doesn't tempt! and he sure as heck doesn't ruin our lives. Jesus will always fight for our hearts before WE choose to walk in sin, but it doesn't end there, he tugs at our hearts constantly until we're free....because he loves us! He'll never force us to love him or to choose obedience. Who would choose a God that forced you to love him? Even when we choose disobedience he still loves us and still fights for us.
So instead of blaming God while dealing with the consequences of OUR sin, OUR wrong choices, PRAISE him! Praise him for allowing us free choice and praise him for bringing you out of your self destruction. If neither life nor death can separate us from the love of Christ than a bad choice can't either!

ROOTS

My life has consisted of moving, moving and well....moving! OK, so it's fun and exciting...as a kid, but as a 24 year old, wanting to put some roots down somewhere seems like an impossible goal to obtain. It's frustrating and lonely and unfortunately I have very few friends because of this constant moving. I'm never in one place long enough to really get to know someone, or in some cases anybody. I guess for once in my life I'd like to just be able to put some roots down somewhere, and maybe make a few friends in the process. Who knows?

Emotions...ugh!

As I sat at Starbucks and pondered the topic of emotions I wondered, as a woman is it possible to not allow them to run my life and decisions?
For a man, or most, emotions are rarely shown, like a rare animal seeing on very few occasions. For a woman, take that same animal, stick it in a glass box and place it in the center of the L.A. zoo! We live and breath emotions and we like to share them with the world!


Emotions, I believe are a blessing from the Lord, but they can also cause major destruction if not dealt with, with wisdom. I've been on both sides of this destruction. I've been confused and hurt by others unwise emotional choices and I've caused more confusion and hurt to people I love because of my unwise choices. If the Lords taught me anything over this past year it would be that emotions like storms come and go, and to be wise with what you may be feeling. In Romans 12:12, Paul says to be glad for all God is planning for you. Be PATIENT in trouble, and ALWAYS be PRAYERFUL.
So my encouragement and challenge is to stay patient and ALWAYS be prayerful...in all things! Even with your emotions. If an emotion rises in you, stop before anything is said or done and ask the Lord, is this necessary to share or act on. Save yourself and others unnecessary confusion and hurt. It's time to cling to the Lord.

Blogger virgin

To be honest I've never read or posted until today, I guess you can call me a "blogger virgin"! But for awhile now it's been on my heart to share my thoughts, ideas, and stories and what better way to do it than post it in the blogging world?!?

My thoughts and ideas are centered around the Lord, the word and my heart. I'm a person who loves to be pursued and invested in. My heart behind this is so that others would KNOW and SEE MY heart, from my words not someone elses. If i'm going to be judged it better not come from someone else.

I'm curious to the core! I like to think deep and strike up good conversation.

So here we go!...